Today is...

Today is actually Tuesday but I know I won't get around to posting this until later this week....


Kailynn-James and I are sitting in the truck waiting for my Dad @ his second appointment of the day. The first was with his Spine Dr. and this one is with his primary care physician because he is starting to catch a cold.....

As we sit here and wait, it's raining and Kailynn-James is causing all kinds of ruckus... still I can't help but type this out now, rather than later. If I wait until later, I'm thinking I may go back and edit or take out a few things that I think perhaps I shouldn't be saying......

But THIS is HARD......... SO HARD.... While @ my Dad's appointment with his spine dr., the dr. showed us the cat-scan and explained what everything was... He showed us photos of my dads bones and what the "C" word has done to his bones.... I think it was the worst thing I've ever seen :-( :-( It hurt so bad to hear someone explain what this DISGUSTING disease has done while trying to terrorize my dads bones. I hated every second of it... every moment made my stomach hurt anymore.... and as a tear rolled down my cheek all my dad did was SMILE at me... The sort of smile to tell me not to cry that GOD is taking care of it all. The damage to his bones is not something new and of course I knew there was damage... but to see it in 3D was a bit tough to me....

Now, please don't think I'm saying I am discouraged or not believing that my Dad is being healed because that is not the case... You see, if you could have seen what I saw, you would wonder HOW ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH is this man even getting up and WALKING... How is he SMILING.... How is he even lifting his legs, moving, etc.

It's all through GOD! Today further strengthened my faith and weakened my sight.... Although I find myself crying, it's only because of the pain my Dad has to endure.... But soon, very soon I'll crying tears of JOY when we get the result that there is NO TRACE of this malicious disease.